Thank you. I'm afraid I was rather indulgent and speaking to Kasey . Today is the day Abby was born and tomorrow the day she died two years ago and I found out that kasey lost two babies and didn't tell me just because she knew I'd worry . ARDS was the result of a tick born illness and we found gross negligence and sought an atty and he said 'that place has 3000 employees and is the ONLY hospital not required to carry malpractice insurance.
Just before we were told to dc life support , it was at the end they called an infectious disease doc and he felt she had tick illness but it was too late. Post Mortem the medical staff at the atty's ofc by records reached that conclusion and were perplexed since she was high risk ob and so sick in july , how could they fail to see that?
They checked me for that when I had become ill, why not her? It was mid summer and what else could it be?
I still make my products and each time I feel her with me. It indeed helped me work thru grief. Hands on tangible outcomes to honor my child and our dreams indeed did help.
I miss her terribly. I always will. I leave a letter with her flowers each time we go to Norman .
I had forgotten I posted here and thank YOU for your kind words. This month and next will be hard but its not as bad as the first year and it is my hopes that next year when three years have passed I can laugh more. But its just two years.
So I've created a line that is for her and it is working . But never will I do something when angry or negative, only when I'm in a good mood so perhaps whoever gets my things feel the energy and the blessing in what they received.
My daughter would not settle for anything but the best and I will not fail her. I have two daughters here , one overseas and then off to live in Hawaii and the other in a different state and its terribly lonely.
Well off to bed. I have an appt with my doc in the morn and then off to the place where my babies sleep beneath the stars.
I am the above named person from BAHRAIN. I am married to Mr. Clement Wast who worked with Bahrain embassy here in TOGO- LOME for nine years before he died in the year 2007.
We were married for eleven years without a child. He died after a brief illness that lasted for only four days.Before his death we were both born again Christian dear pls if you dont mind i will also like to discuse kindom matter(etc) with you pls kindly message me to my box (favourclement10@yahoo.com)
for more important information's thanks, May God Fight for all children of God Accodin to the word on (Exo 14/14)
Dear Anne: Good Morning ! Hope you are well & had a good night !!
Wow........yes our Totem Pole's are still here & will always be I think !
My dear cousins kids are 12 & 14 now, smarter than I ever was at that age too ! They've been home schooled which I think is great now a days !
I've not attended any Church's per-say, as the Church I was raised in, while not far from our home, scare's me as everyone knows me well, and many are nosey, asking far too many questions, with my answers being nothing but shame to myself ! So, for now, I'm having my Sunday Service here at home, watching Church of the Rock from Winnipeg, and I've learned a lot from Pastor Hughes ! Really enjoy it !
My prayers are with you & thankyou again for your kind letter !
God Bless !
luv sjg
Thankyou for your friendship ! Much appreciated.
No, I'm barren & my only dearest family that I can sincerely trust & love, is a cousin, my age & his lovely wife, 2 great kids, that all come out every summer for almost 2 months, along with they're 3 fantastic dogs, as they live in Florida. So truly they are like my yearly vacation/reward in this life !
Look forward to hearing from you !
God Bless you & yours.
luv sjg
And its 2009. We found out that our daughter's illness that developed into ARDS was a tick born disease. We also were told of gross malpractice and negligence. But since that hospital can remain open and not carry malpractice it was not worth the Atty's time. I guess 50 grand wasnt a big enough pay check.
The things we found out.....had they just done two things one at least would be here or both. Turns out they left my daughter under a plastic blanket with a blanket on top and I saw her so red and called for the nurse who argued that machine shows normal temp and I yelled at her 'dont you look at your patients?' and I saw her demeanor change instantly...and then she blew it off like one of those 'oops, my bad, silly thing wasn't turned on'.......what? what is that? why is my daughter burning up and why do you have plastic on her?
'Its a cooling blanket , it wasn't turned on'. When she was in labor I told the nurse and she didn't do an exam....Abby laid under the covers for a very long time , had grown three more weeks to boot and even after laying face down without air, that baby survived a code but by then too much oxygen deprivation had caused damage. A simple check..and to find out that upon admittence my daughter was given a med to stop labor.....and we found out she lost two babies she didnt tell us about so the first time she sought help was when she should have been admitted....they didn't care.
I'm astonished I didnt 'see' there was no fetal monitor tho they would scrub the charts and say there was.....30+ witnesses cant all be wrong...and why did we have to dc life support?
Because her fever had gotten so high she had 7 clots in her frontal lobes and I know that day that happened....that nite they didn't put her bite block back in place and she bit thru her tubes and her tongue and broke out 4 bottom teeth....and her eye was fixed and dialated.
So many things were simply not done. No so much as simple protocol.
This facility employs 3000 people and they can remain open without malpractice insurance.
The other hospitals have to have it. Who is getting paid to look the other way and why have all the State politicians answer me with 'this is not my jurisdiction' and one of them is an OB/GYN.
My babies didn't hurt anyone and they had so much to give but complacency would kill them. the day before we dc'd life support was the day they finally called in an infectious disease doc who said 'I'm going to treat her for Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever', but it was too late, Her kidneys quit and the potent meds they had her on were still in her system along with the dead bacteria....so the cure became toxic.
How do you miss this sort of thing in a State where ticks and mosquitos, snakes etc make people sick? It was summer.....how many people run fever that high in the hot summer? The atty's med staff also concluded that it was tick born.
We gave up the suit. It was too stressful. But I want to know, who's 'jurisdiction' is it? The charts we got were not her charts. She was not left alone. They record no temp over 103 and yet a neurologist states that an exceedingly high fever caused her brain death?
Mabye its just insane but why would any atty not want to handle this?
It has to be the money. I guess we dont revere human life anymore.
She was a number to someone but to me she was a full third of my life's purpose and my heart and that chamber is empty but I leave a candle burning in the window of her room in my heart so she can find her way home.
I really don't understand.
Thank you for the kind words. Its still hard to visit this site.
What I did do was finally finish her perfume. It has taken me two years, a ml of this and half a ml of that....real oils can be 97.00 for a ml....so I sold soap and more soap and traded and bartered and blended and its done. it built itself and has rare and precious oils . I will auction this off and donate a portion (major portion) of the proceeds to ARDS foundation in her name and Abby's and save a little to seed another blend . Its beautiful like she is. She lived life full of scent, sound, touch, taste , music using all of her senses to the fullest and it was easy to know what to make because it made itself....it has amber resin that is 100% natural from Eden Botanicals....I bought samples , one a month, vanuatu sandlwood, frankincense and myrrh, vanilla absolute, balsam of peru, patchouli, aloeswood, orris root, mysore powder, and the heart notes are tuberose, somali rose , jasmine grandifloram, jasmine sambac, ylang, rose geranium, rose de mai and then pure neroli with a touch of sweet orange and maybe I'll add bergamot, the top notes to symbolize her laughter.
its beautiful . So I'll do it again using lesser oils but you can be sure it will be essential oils and absolutes....I've never had the pleasure of working with the true essences of flowers and it is so much different that fragance oils because they tell you what to put with them, they lead you to the blend and its like this is the soul of the various essences and resins , some ancient ....and all very alchemical and spiritual and I hope she is pleased . So as I light the sacred herbs of her tribal side it is my hopes that as the smoke rises the scent flows to her and she knows that it is her mother and father's hearts and love rising to reach her. This time her perfume will also be used and I hope she is pleased.
Hi Anne,
How are you doing ? Things have been very busy with me and I don't get to a computer as often as I wish I could. Hope all is well. Best Wishes Sj.
Happy to hear that you are doing well, I am ok.. I have been going through some anniversaries and trying to deal the best way I know how. Thank you for the nice comments. Be sweet and Take care ...
Sjalva
I am so glad that you like the pictures. I find an awful lot of beauty in them as well as comfort to my soul. I find it so interesting that a camera lens and a naked eye can see things so differently. I hope all has been well with you, Take Care.
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Just before we were told to dc life support , it was at the end they called an infectious disease doc and he felt she had tick illness but it was too late. Post Mortem the medical staff at the atty's ofc by records reached that conclusion and were perplexed since she was high risk ob and so sick in july , how could they fail to see that?
They checked me for that when I had become ill, why not her? It was mid summer and what else could it be?
I still make my products and each time I feel her with me. It indeed helped me work thru grief. Hands on tangible outcomes to honor my child and our dreams indeed did help.
I miss her terribly. I always will. I leave a letter with her flowers each time we go to Norman .
I had forgotten I posted here and thank YOU for your kind words. This month and next will be hard but its not as bad as the first year and it is my hopes that next year when three years have passed I can laugh more. But its just two years.
So I've created a line that is for her and it is working . But never will I do something when angry or negative, only when I'm in a good mood so perhaps whoever gets my things feel the energy and the blessing in what they received.
My daughter would not settle for anything but the best and I will not fail her. I have two daughters here , one overseas and then off to live in Hawaii and the other in a different state and its terribly lonely.
Well off to bed. I have an appt with my doc in the morn and then off to the place where my babies sleep beneath the stars.
I am the above named person from BAHRAIN. I am married to Mr. Clement Wast who worked with Bahrain embassy here in TOGO- LOME for nine years before he died in the year 2007.
We were married for eleven years without a child. He died after a brief illness that lasted for only four days.Before his death we were both born again Christian dear pls if you dont mind i will also like to discuse kindom matter(etc) with you pls kindly message me to my box (favourclement10@yahoo.com)
for more important information's thanks, May God Fight for all children of God Accodin to the word on (Exo 14/14)
Remain blessed in the Lord
Sister mrs favour
Wow........yes our Totem Pole's are still here & will always be I think !
My dear cousins kids are 12 & 14 now, smarter than I ever was at that age too ! They've been home schooled which I think is great now a days !
I've not attended any Church's per-say, as the Church I was raised in, while not far from our home, scare's me as everyone knows me well, and many are nosey, asking far too many questions, with my answers being nothing but shame to myself ! So, for now, I'm having my Sunday Service here at home, watching Church of the Rock from Winnipeg, and I've learned a lot from Pastor Hughes ! Really enjoy it !
My prayers are with you & thankyou again for your kind letter !
God Bless !
luv sjg
No, I'm barren & my only dearest family that I can sincerely trust & love, is a cousin, my age & his lovely wife, 2 great kids, that all come out every summer for almost 2 months, along with they're 3 fantastic dogs, as they live in Florida. So truly they are like my yearly vacation/reward in this life !
Look forward to hearing from you !
God Bless you & yours.
luv sjg
The things we found out.....had they just done two things one at least would be here or both. Turns out they left my daughter under a plastic blanket with a blanket on top and I saw her so red and called for the nurse who argued that machine shows normal temp and I yelled at her 'dont you look at your patients?' and I saw her demeanor change instantly...and then she blew it off like one of those 'oops, my bad, silly thing wasn't turned on'.......what? what is that? why is my daughter burning up and why do you have plastic on her?
'Its a cooling blanket , it wasn't turned on'. When she was in labor I told the nurse and she didn't do an exam....Abby laid under the covers for a very long time , had grown three more weeks to boot and even after laying face down without air, that baby survived a code but by then too much oxygen deprivation had caused damage. A simple check..and to find out that upon admittence my daughter was given a med to stop labor.....and we found out she lost two babies she didnt tell us about so the first time she sought help was when she should have been admitted....they didn't care.
I'm astonished I didnt 'see' there was no fetal monitor tho they would scrub the charts and say there was.....30+ witnesses cant all be wrong...and why did we have to dc life support?
Because her fever had gotten so high she had 7 clots in her frontal lobes and I know that day that happened....that nite they didn't put her bite block back in place and she bit thru her tubes and her tongue and broke out 4 bottom teeth....and her eye was fixed and dialated.
So many things were simply not done. No so much as simple protocol.
This facility employs 3000 people and they can remain open without malpractice insurance.
The other hospitals have to have it. Who is getting paid to look the other way and why have all the State politicians answer me with 'this is not my jurisdiction' and one of them is an OB/GYN.
My babies didn't hurt anyone and they had so much to give but complacency would kill them. the day before we dc'd life support was the day they finally called in an infectious disease doc who said 'I'm going to treat her for Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever', but it was too late, Her kidneys quit and the potent meds they had her on were still in her system along with the dead bacteria....so the cure became toxic.
How do you miss this sort of thing in a State where ticks and mosquitos, snakes etc make people sick? It was summer.....how many people run fever that high in the hot summer? The atty's med staff also concluded that it was tick born.
We gave up the suit. It was too stressful. But I want to know, who's 'jurisdiction' is it? The charts we got were not her charts. She was not left alone. They record no temp over 103 and yet a neurologist states that an exceedingly high fever caused her brain death?
Mabye its just insane but why would any atty not want to handle this?
It has to be the money. I guess we dont revere human life anymore.
She was a number to someone but to me she was a full third of my life's purpose and my heart and that chamber is empty but I leave a candle burning in the window of her room in my heart so she can find her way home.
I really don't understand.
Thank you for the kind words. Its still hard to visit this site.
What I did do was finally finish her perfume. It has taken me two years, a ml of this and half a ml of that....real oils can be 97.00 for a ml....so I sold soap and more soap and traded and bartered and blended and its done. it built itself and has rare and precious oils . I will auction this off and donate a portion (major portion) of the proceeds to ARDS foundation in her name and Abby's and save a little to seed another blend . Its beautiful like she is. She lived life full of scent, sound, touch, taste , music using all of her senses to the fullest and it was easy to know what to make because it made itself....it has amber resin that is 100% natural from Eden Botanicals....I bought samples , one a month, vanuatu sandlwood, frankincense and myrrh, vanilla absolute, balsam of peru, patchouli, aloeswood, orris root, mysore powder, and the heart notes are tuberose, somali rose , jasmine grandifloram, jasmine sambac, ylang, rose geranium, rose de mai and then pure neroli with a touch of sweet orange and maybe I'll add bergamot, the top notes to symbolize her laughter.
its beautiful . So I'll do it again using lesser oils but you can be sure it will be essential oils and absolutes....I've never had the pleasure of working with the true essences of flowers and it is so much different that fragance oils because they tell you what to put with them, they lead you to the blend and its like this is the soul of the various essences and resins , some ancient ....and all very alchemical and spiritual and I hope she is pleased . So as I light the sacred herbs of her tribal side it is my hopes that as the smoke rises the scent flows to her and she knows that it is her mother and father's hearts and love rising to reach her. This time her perfume will also be used and I hope she is pleased.
How are you doing ? Things have been very busy with me and I don't get to a computer as often as I wish I could. Hope all is well. Best Wishes Sj.
Sjalva
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